The R & F – 13. I was born in the 80’s (Final Part)

13. I was born in the 80’s

 

Today I can say that I’m completely proud for the career I’ve been building all this time. All my love could make you love in somewhere, and for sure, sometimes you cried with me. But it is not a reason of sadness anymore.

I know we can dream about anything in our fantastic worlds of mind. I crossed the Earth without any credit card in my eight years because something inside me just said someday every imagined moment could be true.

Girl, maybe you learned how to deal with that earlier than me, but now I know I’m getting old but it is not the only reason to grow up again and again.

I didn’t get some material things until some years ago, but now that stage is more than a real illusion. If I can see you again, listening my songs, screaming my name, blowing me a kiss… It doesn’t matter if it is true or if it is me just trying an escape. Every scream of this guitar tonight, every scream that just broke my throat tonight, I will make it for you, girl, and for me. ‘Cause I know that in the end, we need to keep being alive, like this song:

 

I was just a boy

Couldn’t afford most of the toys

So we just hanged out in the streets

Girl, I don’t dance, I just do the beats’

 

Industrial neighborhood

I lived my life the way I could

My house was all painted in green

I can’t forget most of the scenes

 

Because I’m getting old

I’m not a kid anymore

I’m getting old

I’m not a kid anymore

 

I was born in the 80’s

That’s why I sing this song

My memories are faded

But they aren’t gone

 

Well I was born in the 80’s

And I miss them too

I don’t get totally crazy

Only because of you

 

I had a bike

I had a dog, his name was Spike

We used to play ball all night long

We used to play hair metal songs

 

I bought a guitar

My tunes have taken me so far

I can’t remember most of the nights              

‘cause of the vodka, lime and ice *(Beeshop)

#THE END#

David Felipe Rodrigues Lourenço

Todo o texto inspirado nas músicas de Beeshop – The Rise and Fall of Beeshop, de Lucas Silveira

Créditos das músicas ao final de cada capítulo para Beeshop.

 

Obrigado pela inspiração e pela companhia dos leitores de sempre.

Anúncios

The R & F – 12. All I need

12. All I need 

 Here we go again! – I had listened that phrase a lot of times in a short movie, in a TV show and of course, in a movie. But it’s not the point. If you know a little bit of me until now, you should realize that these times I’m not writing happy moments of this urban life.

I needed to be blessed by a magic creature that could make me believe in the love stories that I used to idealize by my fifteen. I’m not kidding, in each man you can find some holes caused by bad love – that kind of feeling you just have alone.

I would be happier if tonight I could believe in my lyrics inspired for that girl. All I need is to know that you love, maybe me. But if it’s not true anymore, maybe I could to take it over just for my bright eyes, my heart beating faster and my silence for let you go. Unless, I’ve learned how to feel all I need to live.

Background sound according my silent night:

 

She was a friend

A friend of a friend

And I thought it was supposed to be like it

I thought you would end

Up with a boyfriend

But always thinking about me when you go sleep

 

Well, I was wrong

I wrote you this song

To let you know

What you need to know

 

That all I need is to make sure you love

That you love me and there’s nothing above

And now that we have found each other’s hand

Our stories will never part ways again

 

She was a friend

A friend of mine

The type that we spend our lives trying to find

I thought, in the end

You’d be okay

Watching the love of your life fade away

 

That all I need is to make sure you love

That you love…*(Beeshop)

(To be continued)

David Felipe.

 

The R & F – 11. The napkin song

11. The napkin song

 

I’m laid on my bed, and it is rare: being in my own room. And that is the comfort way to say I love you and you don’t leave, suddenly, my arms. That’s the best moment, I can sing to you again.

Girl, you couldn’t imagine how is this sensation of having you.

The next moment, I wake up and you may be dreaming with someone that is not me.

I’ll give some part of my talent for the knowledge of living without the girl that consumes all my days and is the climax of my songs. Ok, it could sounds like enough pride, when I say about my talent, but suffering is a great percent of this talent, everybody knows for now.

I swallow the last piece of this chocolate cake and write some words in the napkin under the candy. I didn’t clean my mouth because sometimes you tasted me for the chocolate piece.

And the music is always surrounding the situation:

Why are your eyes open wide, when you should be dreaming?
Why are you awake at night, when you should be sleeping? (with me)
Why am I trying to fight against all these feelings?
Why am I holding you tight, when i should be leaving?
Why ain’t I ever able to control my own heart?

 

You never do what you’re supposed to
And that’s what you’re all about
That’s why my life is now exposed… i need to figure it out, to figure it out.
Anxiety only grows
And that’s what freaks me out
I wish I could be with anyone
But you’re the only one my heart lets me be with

 

Why ain’t i ever able to begin from the start?

 

You never do what you’re supposed to
And that’s what you’re all about
That’s why my life is now exposed… I need to figure it out, to figure it out.
Anxiety only grows
And that’s what freaks me out
I wish I could be with anyone
But you’re the only one my heart lets me be with

 

No matter what I do
No matter where I am
No matter who I’m with, my heart just wants to be with you!


And I don’t know what to do
I want to be set free
I wish I could control my heart and not fall into you

 

But you are the only one
You are the only one
You are the only one my heart lets me be with

Tonight. *(Beeshop)

David Felipe

(To be continued)

 

The R&F – 10. Mr. Confusion

10. Mr. Confusion

 Should I to live alone? That is an answer I can’t give to myself. Unless, for while. And it is not a way of life, or a choice that I did after some selfish analysis, I’m not sure about my cognitive abilities for now, that is the true.

She stays here after the sunset, screaming aloud at my mind. She says: “I love you” and don’t let me be in her arms. She says: “I can’t stand your pain” and just kiss my mouth at the present moment.

Today is definitely the day I should do nothing and stay here, with my body laid under the sheets and my brain rounding while fries over the pillow.

After all I can’t still organize my thoughts because she is in my mouth, inspiring my lyrics, and she is under my skin when I feel the sense of some flower like jasmine and it is almost a jazz mixing my blue words of sadness.

Girl, you taught me how to love and that night confusion is the word that is driving me crazy again, because you didn’t teach me how to let you go.

Mr. Confusion makes me love no one.

The background sound shut up my mouth, and I try to sleep:

Here comes another
You know you don’t want it
That girl is like a non-stop confusion


Another lover
You know you want it
But you’ve never want her to be it

 

She’s like an oyster with no pearls inside
She’s every doubt inside your mind

 

On the other corner
The one you’ve always wanted
That’s always so far away


You think you love her
Could that be illusion?
Could that not be love?

 

She’s like
The one you want to be beside
She’s got the key to reach your heart

 

Can’t you see? could be one or maybe three
Mr. Confusion, make a move
Mr. Confusion, make a move


Can’t you see? only truth will set you free
Mr. Confusion, make a move
Mr. Confusion, make a move

The love you want
Will make you heart feel cold
You think you’ve got it
But all you’ve got is a hole


Inside your heart
The truth is there to be told
So try to stop
Stop breaking hearts
Stop hurting souls
and hurt yourself *(Beeshop)

(To be continued)

David Felipe.

 

The R&F – 9. Driving all nigth long

9. Driving all night long

I could swear every night long that I would be a new man, funny and laugher without  you, but I can’t stand that bunch of thriller running through my veins and trying to kill me every word I write about us, about you. And it is not just a new song, maybe the song of our life. Yes, I do it for you.

Now, all my muscles are stressed for you, all my said words is for you. It keeps me in a time I was something for you. Don’t think I can’t be your hero again. Ok, I’m proud of my feelings. And that is me saying the same things, a hero protecting his ego.

Let me be with you.

It’s a miracle when after a lot of calls; you hear my voice and give me just a deep breath. I’m tired to say “I”, “me”, “myself”. I’m anxious by a “we”, “us”, “you and me” doing something together. I pull over my car, shut up my mouth and just listen to the music:

It’s not a plane, it’s not a bird

And it’s coming back to save me from what

I deserved

(at least I thought that I deserved)

 

Don’t wanna laugh

Don’t wanna cry

Don’t wanna quit

Don’t wanna try

Oh, baby that’s you

Now look at what you’re making me do

 

Driving all night long

Just trying to bring

you this song

Just do me a favor

Open your window

 

Crying on the phone

Just trying to prove we’re both wrong

I’m getting tired of talking

all alone

 

It’s not a plane

It’s not a bird

Oh honey that’s not what I deserve

I deserve to be your superman

Oh, baby, that’s what I am!

 

I make you laugh

I make you cry

I make your hands reach the sky

So say your

final words

Our plane is going to crash tonight!

But it’s alright

It’s all alright!

Driving all night long

Just trying to bring you this song

Just do me a favor

Open your window

 

Crying on the phone

Just trying to prove

we’re both wrong

Is it so hard to you to know how much I love you?

 

And then we fight

And then we cry

And then laugh until we die

Until we close both of our eyes

(There’s something wrong with this song…)

 

You’re not singing along!

 

We can fill all these miles between us with smiles

And give

up this war

Why don’t we make love right now

like we never did before?

 

Driving all night long

Just trying to bring you this song

Just do me a favor

Open your window

 

Crying on the phone

Just trying to prove we’re both wrong

Is it so hard to you

To know how much I love you? *(Beeshop)

(To be continued)

David Felipe

 

The R&F – 8. Rockstar And Cigarettes

8. Rockstar and Cigarettes

What am I doing here? I promised myself just a couple days ago that I would never talk about you. It could not be happening again. I’m trying to write a new song for an imaginary diva, but it is you again.

My days are passing by the running hours that could not to save my energy for more that think about that beautiful girl that always came back to me. I’m a fail rock star, I know. What’s a boy without a muse? I’m not sure about, but I bet in a lyric without colors, a song with no rhythm.

You are free to say that nowadays I am like a poor writer, an immature man just saying words, a song to drop down at the parade. Oh, girl, I don’t want to be a cigarette burning at the street and suddenly, disappeared. You know, everybody knows: “I miss you”.

Oh my, Oh my,
What am I doing here?

Why did I suddenly disappear?
And honey why am I not with you?

I can see the world from where I am,
I can see you lost and you need a hand,
But right now, I just can’t reach you…

Ooooh I,
I was just a lost soul in this world…
Now I know…

Ooooh I,
I was just a wrong chord in your song,
I don’t belong…

Right here there’s nothing so different,
I just don’t have to pay the rent,
and i’ve seen people i missed so much

I’ve seen rockstars and presidents,
then I realized that I’m not meant
to live without your touch

Ooooh I,
I was just a lost soul in this world…
Now I know…

Ooooh I,
I was just a wrong chord in your song…
I just don’t belong…

Ooooh I,
I was such a lost soul in this world
Now I know…

Ooooh I,
I was such a wrong chord in your song…
I think I don’t belong…

Oh my Oh my
What am I doing here?
Why did I suddenly disappear?
Without saying goodbye to you?

My days have burned like a cigarette,
specially after we have met,
but right now I just miss you.*(Beeshop)

 David Felipe

(To be continued)

The R&F – 7. Victoria Indie Queen

7. Victoria Indie Queen

 

That is over the time of walking alone over the pad of the dark hotel room. I agree when some people say I should to take it over. The magic time is gone.

Nowadays she couldn’t listen to the nice songs we used to listen together. She has a different group of friends to talk about things I would never know how to talk about. The girl I called muse is not a good inspiration anymore. I’m tired of trying to understand why my eyes still insists on wet my face when I sing the melodies that were made for her. It’s not fair, but it is just reality.

My indie queen continues to have a throne at the center of my living room and a pillow to rest for the days we could be nice to each other. You know my eyes, girl. You should be less exposed when walk with another guy.

Don’t listen to my songs, don’t call my name, and don’t remember me. But use to be happy like the days you needn’t any substance to smile at the nights.

Background sound mixing to my thoughts:

She used to be emo
But now she’s into old-school hardcore
And skinny men playing in indie bands
Are not her type at all

I used to know where she goes
After having her daily fashion class
But now she’s got new friends with lots of pot
They’re taking her from me…

And her hair is not short anymore
I’ll be there if you call me… remember those old times

A movie starring Steven Seagal
Eating chocolate-flavoured pop corn
You’ve never observed how perfect you were
Listening to Fresno

And now I see you drunk and wasted
Rytalin in one hand, the other searching for friends
That’s when you see, all you needed was me
… always there for you.

Victoria… she goes to wherever there are party lights
Sometimes she doesn’t see sometimes she’s hurting me
With her damn punk attitude
Victoria… she loves to walk alone across gun-fights
But there has never been a prettier indie queen
This throne was all set for you  *(Beeshop)

David Felipe

(To be continued)