The R & F – 11. The napkin song

11. The napkin song

 

I’m laid on my bed, and it is rare: being in my own room. And that is the comfort way to say I love you and you don’t leave, suddenly, my arms. That’s the best moment, I can sing to you again.

Girl, you couldn’t imagine how is this sensation of having you.

The next moment, I wake up and you may be dreaming with someone that is not me.

I’ll give some part of my talent for the knowledge of living without the girl that consumes all my days and is the climax of my songs. Ok, it could sounds like enough pride, when I say about my talent, but suffering is a great percent of this talent, everybody knows for now.

I swallow the last piece of this chocolate cake and write some words in the napkin under the candy. I didn’t clean my mouth because sometimes you tasted me for the chocolate piece.

And the music is always surrounding the situation:

Why are your eyes open wide, when you should be dreaming?
Why are you awake at night, when you should be sleeping? (with me)
Why am I trying to fight against all these feelings?
Why am I holding you tight, when i should be leaving?
Why ain’t I ever able to control my own heart?

 

You never do what you’re supposed to
And that’s what you’re all about
That’s why my life is now exposed… i need to figure it out, to figure it out.
Anxiety only grows
And that’s what freaks me out
I wish I could be with anyone
But you’re the only one my heart lets me be with

 

Why ain’t i ever able to begin from the start?

 

You never do what you’re supposed to
And that’s what you’re all about
That’s why my life is now exposed… I need to figure it out, to figure it out.
Anxiety only grows
And that’s what freaks me out
I wish I could be with anyone
But you’re the only one my heart lets me be with

 

No matter what I do
No matter where I am
No matter who I’m with, my heart just wants to be with you!


And I don’t know what to do
I want to be set free
I wish I could control my heart and not fall into you

 

But you are the only one
You are the only one
You are the only one my heart lets me be with

Tonight. *(Beeshop)

David Felipe

(To be continued)

 

The R&F – 10. Mr. Confusion

10. Mr. Confusion

 Should I to live alone? That is an answer I can’t give to myself. Unless, for while. And it is not a way of life, or a choice that I did after some selfish analysis, I’m not sure about my cognitive abilities for now, that is the true.

She stays here after the sunset, screaming aloud at my mind. She says: “I love you” and don’t let me be in her arms. She says: “I can’t stand your pain” and just kiss my mouth at the present moment.

Today is definitely the day I should do nothing and stay here, with my body laid under the sheets and my brain rounding while fries over the pillow.

After all I can’t still organize my thoughts because she is in my mouth, inspiring my lyrics, and she is under my skin when I feel the sense of some flower like jasmine and it is almost a jazz mixing my blue words of sadness.

Girl, you taught me how to love and that night confusion is the word that is driving me crazy again, because you didn’t teach me how to let you go.

Mr. Confusion makes me love no one.

The background sound shut up my mouth, and I try to sleep:

Here comes another
You know you don’t want it
That girl is like a non-stop confusion


Another lover
You know you want it
But you’ve never want her to be it

 

She’s like an oyster with no pearls inside
She’s every doubt inside your mind

 

On the other corner
The one you’ve always wanted
That’s always so far away


You think you love her
Could that be illusion?
Could that not be love?

 

She’s like
The one you want to be beside
She’s got the key to reach your heart

 

Can’t you see? could be one or maybe three
Mr. Confusion, make a move
Mr. Confusion, make a move


Can’t you see? only truth will set you free
Mr. Confusion, make a move
Mr. Confusion, make a move

The love you want
Will make you heart feel cold
You think you’ve got it
But all you’ve got is a hole


Inside your heart
The truth is there to be told
So try to stop
Stop breaking hearts
Stop hurting souls
and hurt yourself *(Beeshop)

(To be continued)

David Felipe.

 

The R&F – 9. Driving all nigth long

9. Driving all night long

I could swear every night long that I would be a new man, funny and laugher without  you, but I can’t stand that bunch of thriller running through my veins and trying to kill me every word I write about us, about you. And it is not just a new song, maybe the song of our life. Yes, I do it for you.

Now, all my muscles are stressed for you, all my said words is for you. It keeps me in a time I was something for you. Don’t think I can’t be your hero again. Ok, I’m proud of my feelings. And that is me saying the same things, a hero protecting his ego.

Let me be with you.

It’s a miracle when after a lot of calls; you hear my voice and give me just a deep breath. I’m tired to say “I”, “me”, “myself”. I’m anxious by a “we”, “us”, “you and me” doing something together. I pull over my car, shut up my mouth and just listen to the music:

It’s not a plane, it’s not a bird

And it’s coming back to save me from what

I deserved

(at least I thought that I deserved)

 

Don’t wanna laugh

Don’t wanna cry

Don’t wanna quit

Don’t wanna try

Oh, baby that’s you

Now look at what you’re making me do

 

Driving all night long

Just trying to bring

you this song

Just do me a favor

Open your window

 

Crying on the phone

Just trying to prove we’re both wrong

I’m getting tired of talking

all alone

 

It’s not a plane

It’s not a bird

Oh honey that’s not what I deserve

I deserve to be your superman

Oh, baby, that’s what I am!

 

I make you laugh

I make you cry

I make your hands reach the sky

So say your

final words

Our plane is going to crash tonight!

But it’s alright

It’s all alright!

Driving all night long

Just trying to bring you this song

Just do me a favor

Open your window

 

Crying on the phone

Just trying to prove

we’re both wrong

Is it so hard to you to know how much I love you?

 

And then we fight

And then we cry

And then laugh until we die

Until we close both of our eyes

(There’s something wrong with this song…)

 

You’re not singing along!

 

We can fill all these miles between us with smiles

And give

up this war

Why don’t we make love right now

like we never did before?

 

Driving all night long

Just trying to bring you this song

Just do me a favor

Open your window

 

Crying on the phone

Just trying to prove we’re both wrong

Is it so hard to you

To know how much I love you? *(Beeshop)

(To be continued)

David Felipe